So, This Happened Today (Follow up)

I won't keep you in suspense any longer. My last day is next Friday-if I am finished with my project by then, which at this point, who cares if I am or not? I can pass it off to an intern and call it good.

Now, before the bad mouthing begins, my boss told me that he and the other attorney were very happy with the work I've done here and that I've made certain processes a lot easier to go through which helps the entire department, if not the organization. They also pushed pretty hard to get me to be full time but it wasn't in the budget. I have asked for a collaboration letter of reference from both attorneys which they seem happy to provide (I'll have to keep on them if I ever want to see it though...attorneys, I'm tellin' ya, can't trust them to do anything). Also I think a letter of recommendation would be a bonus since after being laid off from Amazon, would give me an extra push.

I could be upset, but I'm not. I'm looking forward to the uncertainty of the future. The things I have accomplished while I've been here have been amazing steps to my growth as a person and growth for my potential career. I've quit smoking, I've decided what I want to be when I grow up, I'm taking a healthier aspect with me mentally as well as physically and while I don't credit the Institute for all of this, it was here that I started feeling like something needed to change and I'm taking those steps to make that change happen.

With nothing to lose, I told my boss about my plan to go back to school and becoming a librarian. He was so supportive of it, which made me feel even more awesome about the contract coming to an end. He's offered another coffee run for next week. I think I might push for a lunch at Roux. Also, after next week, I don't have to clean up after the inefficient intern. I'm brimming with positivity.

Free Coffee Trumps No Free Coffee

My boss sent me an invite for coffee today and to discuss my time here at the Allen Institute. Yesterday marked my 3 month anniversary, so I suppose this shouldn't come as a surprise. However, I only pieced together that I've been here 3 months now after getting the invite. What this means: I will either be offered a full time position here, or my contract with be severed and I'll go back to the unemployment life. For a while now I've been saying I don't mind what happens with my contract. For the most part, that's true because while I don't mind the work or a steady paycheck, the commute is long and I'd have more time on my hands at home to research Library Science programs as well as being able to volunteer more time at the library getting my feet wet in that lifestyle.

However, after getting the invite, I have turned into a complete nervous wreck. There is no need for it, but I am certainly surprised at my reaction to the possibilities of what is to come. There are pros and cons to each way this could go but at least I'll get a free coffee out of it, right?

Stay tuned.

Got My Shoes Tied Tight

It finally happened. I finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up and I can't believe it's taken me this long to realize it. I'm going to see how long I can go in this post without blurting it out.

I tried being clever and spelling it out with the start of every sentence but the format of the actual blog got all screwed up, and it didn't work the way I was hoping. Plus, it was a horribly written paragraph, so never mind.

I'll give you a hint. I spend a lot of my time at work researching things, and a lot of my spare time reading. Give up?

What better way to get paid than to be a librarian? I don't think I could ever hate that job, or get sick of having to spend my days in a library. So, yup. There's that, I've been looking into it for about a week now and I'm hoping to apply for Fall Quarter. We'll see how it goes.

As you were.

Oh here we go

I'm a bit of a hypochondriac. When I was in junior high, I fell asleep to a show about spontaneous human combustion and for years was convinced that's how I was going to die. I've come to terms with it now, being if that's how I go, it'll be way more awesome than dying in my sleep or something boring like that.

My biggest fear/paranoia (aside from birds, as that's daily all the time fear), is that I'll get bot fly larva in my eye. Dunno how that one came to be, but it's probably going to happen and I'll lose an eye.

As I've been laying here trying to fall asleep, I can hear something in my right ear. It's more than likely just water, but images of a spider living in my ear keep flashing through my mind. Therefore, it's a spider living in my ear and I cannot sleep. 

I am a whack-a-do. 

IT Guy makes me want to smoke

 I quit smoking last Thursday. I've decided that I want to be healthier amongst other varied reasons. Anyway, I quit, bought a crappy e-cigarette that doesn't quite do the trick, but I'll manage and I promptly started coughing, which then turned to the hell cold/low grade fever flu thing. I'm sure they aren't connected with each other, my quitting and catching the yuck (except the lower immunity thing from smoking). I stayed home almost all weekend wrapped in blankets in my jammies on the couch, except Sunday for the Superb Owl. In order to get out of the house I went to a friend's for the game and socialization for a few hours then home again. Sunday night hit me like a ton of bricks health wise and I ended up staying home from work yesterday...though I'm sure my boss thinks I just had a really good time at the sports ball party wink, wink.

Today I am a complete monster/she-beast. I left my head wrapped up in the blankets at home, wrote the wrong email to the wrong guy, attached the wrong document and called him the wrong name. Tried to log into a website only to not be able to. Sorting out the user name/pw thing it said I failed to log in correctly 9 times (9!) and blocked me from the site. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot. Also, my boss isn't here in order for me to prove that I am genuinely sick. No longer contagious, but still sick.

Currently, I'm working on this stupid project that sounds simple enough but the software that's being used makes it incredibly difficult and stupid. First, there is no one in the office who is an expert on the software. Second, the website for said software doesn't have a forums/FAQ/Help Me, Please Dear God Help Me link. Third, the software company is in Chicago and the IT department, I'm pretty sure hates me.

There's a bunch of stuff that goes on with it, that if I try to explain, your head might hurt as much as mine does. To simplify: I listed out my needs to the IT Guy and asked him how to make the recipe for an automatic email. He, being the expert, sent numerous variations of a recipe which all turned out to be crap and now I'm apparently the idiot who can't figure it out on my own (According to him, there must be some confusion here. Ya think?!). Since I missed yesterday, I'm working 4/10's to make up for it. I have 4 hours to go, and the IT Guy makes me want to smoke, like your job makes you want to drink.