Shit Sandwich Again?

It’s been awhile since I've updated this thing, and a lot is going on, so it’s time to fill y’all in. How vapid of me.

Let’s start with the less than positive stuff- I’m still working on being more positive overall, but sometimes life serves shit sandwiches for your meals and you either take it, or starve. Right? So. The plot twist continues in my sometimes rather unexceptional life.

Some of my closest friends are moving to North Carolina. That’s all the way on the other side of this gigantic country we live in. All the way across, and a bit South. I knew it was coming, but I was a bit of an ass and told them I didn’t want to talk about it till it was a more concrete plan. I got a text saying they had negotiated a house and they’re moving probably at the end of the month.

Cue all of the crying.

Ugh. I know it’ll be a new adventure for them and I want them to be happy and successful there, but I am so selfish and want to keep them here with me forever…or at least take them with me wherever I go. So that’s the thorn in my side right now that causes me to well up whenever I think about it and it sucks. They’re having a farewell BBQ in the middle of the month, just look for the crying mess sitting in a corner drinking beer and chain smoking. That’ll be me. Approach with caution.

Good friends are family, and you never lose your family. I’ll just be traveling to North Carolina a lot going forward. Plus, I was promised a pony on my visits. Ok, mayyybe not promised, but I’m still expecting one.

Ok, that one’s a little heavy for me so moving on to something a bit happier.

My job is awesome! I was able to go to Portland, OR for a couple of days to visit friends/family and the next day go to the shipyards where we have a few vessels being built. Without going into any detail, it was a kick in the pants good time. I wrote a report on the work part of the trip which was well received and I suppose I sound like I know what I’m talking about a little bit more. I’m no pro yet, but I’m getting there. This job has already given me so many opportunities that I never would've imagined at any other job I’ve had before and I am so stinking grateful for it. It’s a fascinating industry, I totally dig what I’m doing.

I have a new roommate, who has a dog that looks like a bigger version of Chug and they wrestle so much that they’re both exhausted which means Chug sleeps through the night and that makes me really happy. Also, roommate can cook really well and she’s stocked the kitchen with all sorts of good stuffs. We get along. Last night we sat on the couch, watched videos of screaming goats and giggled.

Next:

This dating life…

UGH. Why do I do this to myself? I was seeing a fella for a very short period of time and things were going swimmingly, there was a lot of great potential there for it to blossom into something more and we both felt it. AND THEN! Dun, dun, duuuunnnn! Turns out, he’s gonna be a dad! Baby’s mama is a woman he has no interest in! AWESOME! Peace out and lotsa luck.

I've had a couple of dates since and one tonight. A couple of friends have asked me if I’m excited about tonight’s date. I've broken it down like this:

You know when you’re looking for a job and you have a ton of interviews? You’re really excited for the first few, but you come to find you’re either not that interested in the position, or you never hear back from them, whatever the case may be. You go to a few more, and you notice your excitement turns to discouragement. You, however, are a champ and you keep on keepin’ on. Still nothing, and your discouragement turns into straight up “Fuck it”. I’m at the border of discouragement and fuck it. The positive of being in this place is that, that’s usually when you find a job…so, maybe this one might be worth the salt, maybe. I’m not counting on it. Either way, free dinner and beer! Count me in.

I feel like my sense of humor has altered to be a little more on the dry side. Although, I still have moments of in your face hilarity. This is a good balance, at least I’m really into it.

Ok, that’s all. As you were.