I'm getting a roommate. Begrudgingly getting a roommate. I've been on my own for a long time, and this city is getting ridiculously expensive to be a lone wolf no matter how much I'd like to continue on being one.
In retrospect, the positives that could be taken away from getting a roommate are: I'll be able to save some cash and actually utilize my savings account. Travelling would be more feasible, a potential new friend to kick it with, and occasional pet sitter...that is if I play my cards right.
What I'm giving up: a portion of my independence, and my sanctuary- the library. This is the heartbreaking part, the part that makes me not want to do this at all. I still don't wanna. I can tell myself it'll be better, but I'm still feeling bitter that I wasn't able to do it on my own.
However, I need to think about the grander picture of what it is I need in my life to make it richer and fuller. I can make this work. I need to make this work. Therefore I need to let go of the the negatives and focus on the possibilities that this change can bring.
Next week will be my 2 year anniversary at work. It's been incredibly challenging and I don't see that ending, yet I appreciate a good challenge. Over the past year I've put essentially everything else on hold to hit the ground running, putting the majority of my time and efforts into my job. I have good days, and the bad can be really bad, but I keep at it - damning the nay-sayers as I go. Tenacity and pushing back are a couple of traits I carry around, whether you look at that as an adverse quality is up to you. It's how I am- and as we know, well behaved women rarely make history, I'm in the frame of mind of making and forming my own history.
Dating is still stupid.
And there you have it. Update complete.
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